19 Weeks - Registered, eating crap, what if it's a boy?

What I'm Up To 

Elated by the discovery that we're having a girl I finally went to my local baby superstore and registered.  I brought my baby sister (she's 18, but will always be my baby sister) with me.  I don't really like shopping anywhere but the grocery store by myself.  Unless I'm absolutely in love with something and HAVE to have it, I have a hard time making up my mind.  On the bigger items I only ordered 2 things (a play-yard and a stroller/car-seat travel set) in a pink pattern.  Even then my sister had to majorly convince me that it was ok because this is our first baby.  I'm allowed, according to her.  She had the little scan gun thingy anyway so I convinced myself it was useless to argue.  Yeah, it didn't take very much convincing.  Everything else is pretty neutral.  The crib bedding and layette are girlie too.  I'll finally get my 18 week ultrasound pics up tonight along with what I registered for and why and a breakdown of my first cloth diaper order. 

I went ahead and registered the domain name for our baby's website this weekend too.  I looked at some of the free sites offered for baby pages, but I want to be allowed to put up as many pictures and videos as I want, and change the look of the page whenever I want.  It seemed that most of the sites I found either didn't offer enough space or only let you use their cuter designs if you paid a fee.  So, I thought, "why not just register a cute easy to remember domain name and host the page myself along with this site?"  The domain will cost me $10 extra a year with Hostmonster (who, by the way, I love, love, love as a former Godaddy user) but I can use my own existing account and space that I have with them for onegeekygirl.com.  I know that's not an option everyone has access to or the skills to maneuver though. 

I placed my first cloth diaper order last night yay!  Along with the crib bedding I bought today and actual crib and mattress, that will be the last of my baby purchases for a while.  Since I can actually eat and have enough energy to be out for hours now (I do have to sit down every once in a while to rest a bit.) my mom and sister have made this past week a busy and expensive one for me.  So, even though the crib bedding, crib and mattress ended up being free for us (we got a generous amount on gift cards for Christmas), eating out with mom & sis and little shopping sprees for girl outfits along with the cloth diapers have added up.     

While eating out I try to eat pretty decently.  Lately though, at home, I've been craving things like potato chips, chocolate on occasion, and root beer.  I'm trying to stay good and get my sweets from yummy Greek yogurt and berries or a glass of chocolate milk.  Sometimes cravings win though.  The other day I had my first Godiva milk chocolate latte.  Godiva is my all time favorite chocolate and this drink had little specs of their chocolate in every sip.  It was definitely a decadence.  Worth the guilt though.  Unlike the Supersonic cheeseburger I had for dinner.  I'm going to be burping up onions till luchtime tomorrow. :o/ 

How I'm Feeling Physically

Speaking of burping, I definitely do a lot of it.  Pretty much anytime I eat veggies, onions, chocolate, greasy stuff or soda or anytime I let myself get hungry, I get burpy.  Not too terrible, just a little embarassing sometimes.  I get really thirsty too, but I'm doing better with drinking water.  I'm not up to 10 glasses a day or anything, but better than I've been since the beginning.  Another, newer, symptom is bumping my belly on things.  I guess I'm just not used to having this extra part of me sticking out so far.  I'm not even that big yet.  I've had a few people tell me I look small for almost 5 months.  By the time I got done running errands today though my poor belly felt a little bruised.  I bumped or accidentally squished it a lot.  Youchy.  I have to position my laptop a little differently too.  The belly pokes out too far for me to have my computer where I usually hold it on my legs.  I want to get a little TV tray or something similar that I can set it on while I relax on the couch.  I'm just more comfortable if I can sit back, than if I'm leaning over a desk.  I'm not feeling any kicks really just yet. 

Emotionally

I'm dealing with the car insurance, collision shop and rental car company because of that accident I had about a week and a half ago.  Having to deal with that in addition to my regular chores is a little annoying.  I just wish the lady who hit me would have been in less of a rush and a little more patient.  Now I have to deal with all this extra work because of her mistake.  It could've been way worse though damage-wise and at least all the people I've had to deal with because of it have been really nice.  I think I'm just a little frustrated that now I feel more anxious on the road.  I feel like I have to worry even more about the drivers around me now that I have a little person who needs my protection growing inside. 

Another worry, that I'm sure is just a 'this-is-too-good-to-be-true' feeling, is the worry that I'm getting all excited about my little girl.  I have this worry in the back of my mind that the baby is going to come out and the Dr. is going to say "It's a boy!"  I know any baby, especially a healthy baby, is a blessing.  I had just  been hoping for a girl.  I even looked online at other people's "girl" ultrasound pictures and mine actually looks way more clear than many I found.  The "hamburger" is definitely there.  I guess I just still can't believe it.  It hasn't stopped me from diving into the pink sections at the stores though.  I couldn't stop myself from buying these cute little teeny white sunglasses with pink hearts on them the other day.  I just look at them and smile.

~Jessy