Here We Grown Again! Hopefully.

I think I'm insane.  Completely.  I remember having my first baby and thinking to myself (very clearly) "never again!"  As a matter of fact I think I actually said that to pretty much everyone I managed to come into contact with those first few months.  That feeling had nothing to do with my awesome daughter.  It was all the pregnancy, labor and delivery.  I was sick of being sick, and terrified of labor and delivery again.  Plus I was still healing.  So, every move was accompanied by pain.

Well, like "they" say, you really do forget the pain.  So, since the baby was 6 months old I've slowly been starting to long for another little one.  Two things kept me from actually getting started on one though: a) my cycle hadn't returned, I was still breastfeeding a lot, and b) the man of the house needed some convincing.  With the economy and politics the way they are he wasn't on board with the idea of having to worry about supporting another person.  I'm still a stay at home mom.  So, we're operating on a one parent income and things can be pretty tight; Especially now that we actually own a home.  

After much deliberation we've decided to go ahead and try for number two.  My cycle returned 2 months ago after I started giving the little one a small bottle of milk before her evening feed.  We just started trying this cycle.  I'm on cycle day 15.  We've essentially done things the same as last time.  I keep forgetting to use the ovulation predictor kit.  I think we've covered my usual ovulation days this month though.  

Signs that I might be pregnant:

*Fatigue!!!  

*The Nose is back.  All sorts of smells are much stronger and bothersome.  I had to throw away the garlic I had sitting on my counter and move the air freshener I had sitting by my sink.  I couldn't bare to eat more than a nibble of the homemade fig newtons I tried to bake yesterday because all I could smell was citrus from the orange peel I added.

*Loss of appetite and sudden cravings.  I'm not really hungry most of the day right now.  I was doing really well eating 5 times a day, 3 healthy meals and 2 snacks. My only cheat day was on Sunday when I bake something new.  Lately I just don't want anything except the meaty spaghetti I cooked earlier in the week.  I have a big bowl for lunch every day.  I majorly started craving Oreos all of a sudden.  I found a recipe and made them (tasted EXACTLY the SAME!) and couldn't eat any.  I ate a piece of one to test the results, but haven't touched them since.  I just don't want them.  

*The ache.  I have this slight ache when I do certain activities.  It's in the same area where I might feel PMS cramps, but it's always there.

*My deodorant has suddenly stopped working. Maybe a hormonal change?  The same stuff that usually lasts me all day is melted away by the time I'm done with my morning errands.  

All of this may just be my body still adjusting to getting my cycles back.  Maybe it's just bad PMS.  Mine usually starts around day 14 and is a beast.  So, we'll see.  I can test a week from this Tuesday. :)  ~crossing my fingers~